I feel like this woman sometimes. It has always seemed like I was on the outside looking in when it comes to being accepted by the church (people), because not everyone who goes to church – is the church! Deep down I never felt I deserved the good things they all seem to have. I was raised in a non-christian home – around folks who drank, fought and smoked lol. I wasn’t what I call a career Christian.
A career Christian is a person who has been raised in church and has never known what it is to be out in sin. They are actually very hard to teach because Grace has another meaning to them, than it does someone like me.
I have made so many mistakes, and I have needed to repent many times since I became His child! I have wronged others, and others have wronged me. I am still very reluctant to express a need in my life, although I do when theres no choice, it is at those times I feel most like this woman!
I can see her face when the Lord told her “healing is the children’s bread!” I can feel her heart start to break as if the understanding of it is too much to bear! She had no way of knowing that He said this because of the law. She didn’t know He was about to deliver her daughter. All she knew was – her need was immediate.
Then she said to Him, “thats true but even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the children’s table!”
My mind went immediately to the picnics we had as a kid. In the city park we had nice picnic tables, swings and a water fountain. I loved the water fountain because the water was always so cold. Anyway, there were always stray dogs and sometimes they would venture near our table to grab some crumbs that fell from our table. Although it’s an insult to be called a dog, I don’t believe the dogs were insulted to eat the crumbs. The crumbs were exactly what they were looking for. Today as I created a fundraiser to help me with auto repairs or replacement – it hit me – I understood – that many would see me much like this woman who seemed to be less than deserving of help! Then her words shot through my soul like an arrow!
Yet the Word of God is bread! Healing is Bread!
Most importantly Jesus said I am the Bread of Life! Today , I am not under Gods table eating the crumbs! although even the crumbs from Gods table would satisfy me- it’s not all he has for me. My bread of life – my help in time of trouble is Jesus, the Real Bread of Life. Tonight I am aware that my Father owns the cattle on every hill, and I am living under the great Grace of God – which makes me a child of the most high God – Amen
Mat 15:25 Then came she and worshiped him, saying, Lord, help me. Mat 15:26 But he answered and said, It is not meet to take the children’s bread, and to cast it to dogs. Mat 15:27 And she said, Truth, Lord: yet the dogs eat of the crumbs which fall from their masters’ table.
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